So much joy today and for some reason I also feel some immense sadness. Joy for the two absolutely perfect babies that call me mom and sadness for the 3 little souls that I never got to meet. I have had a blast with the twins today. I love their snuggles, kisses and hugs and the sound of their little voices saying "Happy Mother's Day, Mommy"... all treasures that I could've only dreamt of 3 years ago. It is priceless. It makes me feel so blessed. They are my world and I am so happy that they made me a mom... THEIR mom.
I am spending this Mother's Day in disappointment of another failed cycle. I went to test on CD13 (Wednesday) and AF was there... I took the hint. Thanks. So... here I am on CD4. I have another mid-cycle ultrasound on CD12 and we will go from there.
This will happen for us again. I know it will. Today I will love on my littles and bask in their kisses. I will dream of the little one that is waiting to be ours and I will never forget the littles that were taken too soon. I will fill up my heart with their laughter and hold it their forever.